Chris and I came to group this last weekend. It’s taken me a year and a half to tell him that finding his daughter began me having more questions about my adoption.
He is supportive but
worries I am over thinking this.
Stress has been high for me,
close deaths, two family weddings, some family pot stirring, working in family business, traveling with family, raising children.
He questions why
I am think about so many
things all at once. His words
help but also make me
question where to put my energy.
Maybe it is a distraction method. Focusing on my adoption may help distract from all the other stuff.
I have been seeing Bruce to help me sort out some of my issues.
I would appreciate some direction for me to consider. Or any other thoughts.
So I guess I ask for some direction as to what to focus on next.
DNA test? Open record?
Or wait a bit?
I will continue to try to get to group. The safe environment helped me have the strength to share some of the feelings and thought that have resurfaced. Once I started talking the flood of emotions and thoughts just kept coming. So the quilt comes that I should have spoken less.
But I already know next month is out for me.